Can't Handle It Myself
Life is too complicated, too unreal
Love, Life, School, Friends, Family, Feuds
Never simple, even in the beginning
Love wasted; Life squandered
School is hell, Friends only pretend to care
Family forces you to choose
Feuds force sides, unwanted
Love, Life, School, Friends:
Four things that are 'Good'
Most turn Dark
Family – supposed to be one,
Never stays right, Never whole,
Feuds sprout over bullshit.
I can't handle it myself
Overwhelmed, Underwater
Drowning in my own life
Lights fading
Darkness growing
Hope less, Life less
Grabbing at life,
Holding it with two fingers
Life slips out of reach
Oblivion sweeps over me
The flash of The Blade
The ooze of blood
Hell on Earth
Heaven Is Missing
Slow and Painful
Fast and Painless
Either won't help
I can't do this anymore
Friends can't help,
They only pretend
Only one voice
Can help me now.
Only to hear their voice,
My savior, My friend
Can't Mistake, Can't Forget
I only pretend to be happy
A mask eternally fixed on my face.
I Can't Handle This Myself
Life Unbearable, I run like a Robot
Dreams that will never come true
Haunting my waking hours
Never can dream of a better life,
Only Death and Despair